Here we go for real again

 

I guess here we go with another attempt at losing weight again.

I just want to let everyone know I have always struggled with weight my whole life and I feel like I am starting to get a hold on it but it might also be because I am almost forty years old and I want to get a grip on it now.

I have started walking along more around even if it just walking up and down the street on the sidewalk for like thirty to forty five minutes.

I have also started drinking a lot more water which I never really thought would happen.

I am going to start using myfitnesspal to help track everything I buy and eat as I am also gonna try to start eating much more healthier and limiting the things that hurt my body. 

I just recently saw my primary care physician  and when I was weighed in I was at 386 pounds so I lost about 15-20 pounds in the 6 or so months since I last saw Him. I do plan on buying a home scale but I am not sure when that will be.

He also wants me to maybe see a kidney specialist as he thinks there might be something wrong with my kidney. The last time I saw him he referred me to see a nonsurgical weight loss doctor but I suddenly lost the paperwork for that and he has three referred me for that as well so I am definitely taking all this a lot more serious as I want to get my life fixed not just with my mental health but with my actual health considering what I have been through in my life.

So if you want to come for the ride I will try to make updates on my weight loss Journey and post pictures as well and I also made a section in my Discord server as well

https://discord.gg/WGDVC6ek

I want to thank everybody for taking the time to read this and I want everybody to please keep me accountable for everything I want to work on because I do not easily motivate myself

Again thanks for reading and I will see you in the next post

-Smiles 

The real me

 Welcome everyone back to the blog.

This will not be an easy blog for me to do but I need to do it because I need to open up and be myself.

I am apart of the ABDL community and lifestyle which stands for Adult Baby Diaper Lovers and I am apart of the Adult Baby side of things.

I am making this post to feel more secure on who I am and wanna be.

I want to be treated and dressed to full capacity as a baby girl and I one day wanna live like that 100% of the time which means I wanna wear diapers, girls clothes, have nails done, makeup, hair (wigs) and the full nine yards. I also wanna be treated like a baby fully as well like my diapers being changed even in public, bottle fed or breast fed, eat baby food and the whole bone yard for this also.

When it comes to the clothes I wanna wear bras, undergarments, diapers, dresses, skirts, socks and all other clothes also.

I know this post may catch people off guard and people may find this weird and don't understand this but I have secretly wanted to do all of this since high school.

I know alot of people won't accept this type of lifestyle but I need to be honest upfront and be who I am and I hope people can accept me for who I am.

I also have an alter ego known as Skye Marie and my Adult Baby age is a baby girl that is between the ages of 0-1.

Since I am on such sensitive topics at the moment I will also like to come out and say that I am bisexual and have been for about a few years now and just wanted to add that also.

So I understand if I lose friends or family over this post I have accepted it cause I need to be myself.

Thanks for reading.

Skye Marie aka Smiles

Well Hello and more...

 Welcome,

First off I would like to wish everybody a Happy New Year and welcome to 2022 I hope everybody has a wonderful and safe year.

I also would like to say that this will be a very long post but thank you for being here and taking the time to read this.

I am starting my blog post off with this year with goals that I want to complete this year as we all know the last couple of years I have not taken very good care of myself and I need to fix it before it gets out of control.

I will first start off with I visited my primary care physician on December 27th for my 6 month check up and when I went to get on the scale I wait a lot more than what I wanted to and I felt disgusted with myself because I weighed in at 412 pounds to me that is a very unacceptable and it makes me feel disgusted about myself how could I let myself get this bad I need to find a way to quit roller coaster riding with my weight and I want to find a way to keep it off after I lose the weight so thankfully my doctor recommended me to a non surgical Weight Loss Management and I'm going to take it serious this time because I need to.

My thoughts in my head when I saw that number on the scale is how? And my feelings were out of whack also like I said before I felt disgusted about myself I don't feel handsome at this weight and I know it's definitely not healthy to be at this weight so my first goal for this year is to lose weight and to get healthy so I can be around for my niece who is my motivation also being around for my family is my motivation as well.

My next big goal I want to tackle this year is to quit smoking because I say this every year and I never end up doing it but the nice thing is I have slowed down on how much I smoke even though I am still smoking at the moment my goal is to not be smoking by the end of the year.

My next goal is I need to take better care of my apartment and keep it clean because let's be honest I hardly ever clean it I clean it like once every like two or three months and this needs to stop immediately because I know if I have a clean apartment I will have the better feeling for my mental health and maybe it would make me feel accomplished knowing that I finished something because I don't feel accomplished with anything in my life up to this point other than graduating high school.

My next goal is that I want to start going back to church and improve my relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ because I have not been to church in a while and I feel like this is a way that could help guide me and give me direction outside of friends and family.

My next goal outside of all of this is to just find a job because I have not really had a job in the last 2 years and I basically haven't even been looking and I know it's time for me to start looking for a job but I just have not had the motivation and my mental health has been bad because of everything going on with coronavirus for like the last like 2 years and with everything going on with coronavirus I just don't want to look for a job.

I feel like I need to be more open about my feelings and how I'm feeling and how I'm doing so maybe with this blog I will start posting stuff about that more and maybe it will help me. Because when it comes to my feelings I do feel like I'm alone.

I guess this is everything for now so I won't bore you guys any longer but thanks for coming to the site and thanks for taking the time to read this and I will see you guys in the next post.

-Smiles