Welcome,
First off I would like to wish everybody a Happy New Year and welcome to 2022 I hope everybody has a wonderful and safe year.
I also would like to say that this will be a very long post but thank you for being here and taking the time to read this.
I am starting my blog post off with this year with goals that I want to complete this year as we all know the last couple of years I have not taken very good care of myself and I need to fix it before it gets out of control.
I will first start off with I visited my primary care physician on December 27th for my 6 month check up and when I went to get on the scale I wait a lot more than what I wanted to and I felt disgusted with myself because I weighed in at 412 pounds to me that is a very unacceptable and it makes me feel disgusted about myself how could I let myself get this bad I need to find a way to quit roller coaster riding with my weight and I want to find a way to keep it off after I lose the weight so thankfully my doctor recommended me to a non surgical Weight Loss Management and I'm going to take it serious this time because I need to.
My thoughts in my head when I saw that number on the scale is how? And my feelings were out of whack also like I said before I felt disgusted about myself I don't feel handsome at this weight and I know it's definitely not healthy to be at this weight so my first goal for this year is to lose weight and to get healthy so I can be around for my niece who is my motivation also being around for my family is my motivation as well.
My next big goal I want to tackle this year is to quit smoking because I say this every year and I never end up doing it but the nice thing is I have slowed down on how much I smoke even though I am still smoking at the moment my goal is to not be smoking by the end of the year.
My next goal is I need to take better care of my apartment and keep it clean because let's be honest I hardly ever clean it I clean it like once every like two or three months and this needs to stop immediately because I know if I have a clean apartment I will have the better feeling for my mental health and maybe it would make me feel accomplished knowing that I finished something because I don't feel accomplished with anything in my life up to this point other than graduating high school.
My next goal is that I want to start going back to church and improve my relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ because I have not been to church in a while and I feel like this is a way that could help guide me and give me direction outside of friends and family.
My next goal outside of all of this is to just find a job because I have not really had a job in the last 2 years and I basically haven't even been looking and I know it's time for me to start looking for a job but I just have not had the motivation and my mental health has been bad because of everything going on with coronavirus for like the last like 2 years and with everything going on with coronavirus I just don't want to look for a job.
I feel like I need to be more open about my feelings and how I'm feeling and how I'm doing so maybe with this blog I will start posting stuff about that more and maybe it will help me. Because when it comes to my feelings I do feel like I'm alone.
I guess this is everything for now so I won't bore you guys any longer but thanks for coming to the site and thanks for taking the time to read this and I will see you guys in the next post.
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