Twitch

hello everyone and welcome to a quick little update that I would like to share and that is I am officially an affiliate on twitch now so come on out and support me if you like the link is under my socials to the bottom right or you can click here.

I am just so excited to become an affiliate on twitch and I am kinda still freaking out about it and I only have had it for 1 week.

Bang Energy Drink Star Blast Flavor Review

I would like to say first of all this is the first ever bang energy drink i have ever had and boy was I glad I chose this flavor for my first one and now I am interested in the rest of the flavors too see if I like more.

Star blast has a hint of strawberry and mixed berry in my opinion and it is really good and I normally do not like strawberry flavored things at all but I feel it is not overpowering in my opinion. i will for sure be getting this flavor again after I try some of the other flavors to see what I like and expect reviews of those as I try them.

I rate the drink a solid 8/10

Rock Bottom

I would like to welcome everyone back to Smiles World but this will not be a very easy blog to type so if you feel triggered please feel free to leave because in this blog I will be talking about my mental health.  This will also probably be a very long blog post.

I eel my downward spiral started back in December of 2019 around the holidays because it was a time of year again with not having my parents around again for the holidays and i feel that is starting to get to me harder every year more that there gone and as I get older. As April rolls around I get Laid off from my job at circle K and the reason was for me being stupid and going back to my old habits of stealing things and not to mention this is back when the Coronavirus pandemic stuff started to happen then the state of my mental health took a big sky dive down i fell into a depression to where I wanted to commit suicide a couple of times and thought that the world would be better off without me because I am always screwing things up and can't keep a job, i feel like i will never meet my soul mate, I feel like I dont have real life friends, I am basically feeling like a loser and that the world would be better off without me. I am also gonna come clean I also don't remember the last time I did laundry I think it was like 2 or 3 months ago and the last time i deep cleaned my apartment is about the same time length so yeah I have fell into a deep depression and to top it off I have not really been eating that well there was a time period back in june where I did not eat for 8 straight days and i only drank water in those 8 days and just for reference I am six foot one (6'1) and the last time i weighed my self I was at I think 376 when I last saw my doctor in person and I feel that I blossomed back up to around 400 pounds easily.

So as the title of this blog says I have really hit rock bottom in my eyes and so far I am not sure when I will get out of it because I am still feeling like this lately but have not had suicide thoughts anymore for now. at this current moment I am still not in the best current position of my mental health and my depression and to be honest what I think made it worse was the quarantine that we have had to do for like the past 4 months because of the pandemic around the world. I also feel like that I am going to be forever alone also that no one truly cares about me.

I don't find myself smart, attractive or even good looking at all i feel dumb and feel i would be better off six feet under. i feel im no good around everybody. i guess this is all i wanna say for now maybe ill do a part 2 blog post in the future not sure yet.

Thanks for Reading

-Joseph

Hiatus

Ladies and gentleman I am here today today to announce that I will be taking a hiatus from blogging because my mental health has been getting the better of me lately and I need to get a grip on it before it gets worse so I feel taking this hiatus can help me get better for the future.

I have also just lost my job as well so I need to take some time to also find a new job as well. I am not sure when I will be back to blogging but I do hope it will be sooner then later but until then I will not be blogging, If you wanna keep up to date with me please feel free to follow me on my social media outlets as that will be the best way to keep up to date with me especially twitter.

Thanks in Advance See you soon!

-Joseph

What have I been up Too?

Hello Everyone!

I would like to welcome you all back to my blog and you all probably are wandering where have I been well I decided to take a little hiatus from here but that does not mean I have not been busy in which I have actually have been and one of those things is preparing for my trip in April to Toronto Canada and I am extremely nervous and excited because this will be the first time I will be traveling outside of the United States by myself and I am thankful for all of the hospitality from my friend that I can stay with him while I am there so I do not have to pay for a hotel while I am there for one week so be looking ahead for some blogs while I am there and also reviews from restaurants and attractions as well.

Other then that I have not really done much other then work and for a little bit of time i was in a depressed state of mind and im not fully out of it yet but i am doing better though.

i guess thats all for now.

-Joseph

Angel falls coffee company review

I made my way over here after I finished my quiznos because I wanted something sweet because I had a sweet tooth and i decided to get a mango smoothie and it was really good and just sweet enugh for my liking and i feel the price of $3.90 USD is just right for a 16 ounce smoothie. the only thing i did not like is after a while the straw started to fall apart.

The place was really nice and clean and the staff was helpful and friendlyand i will be back here for sure if I am ever in the area.

This review can also be found on my Yelp Page     legendofsmiles.yelp.com

Quiznos Review

I made my down to Quiznos for lunch on 1/13/2020 and it is located inside of orangerie mall down on south main street across the street from the main library.

I arrived at around 12:45pm and it was a little busy but not to busy in my opinion and i decided to order a gyro with a cup of brocolli cheese soup and a bag of miss vickies chips and a fountain drink and i would have to say the soup was better then the gyro which the soup was nice and hot and fresh and delicious especially with the crackers. the gyro was good but the ingredients did not taste fresh to me and the chips were just okay in my opinion. The only reason im not giving a higher rating is because this meal came to a total of $10.25 USD which i think is a little too pricey for what i got in my opinion.

The restaurant was nice and clean and the staff was nice and friendly and quick.

I will probably be back every once in a while.

This review can also be found on my Yelp Page at legendofsmiles.yelp.com

Papa johns pizza review

 Today i decided to order lunch from papa johns pizza all by myself  and i will let you all know that papa johns is not my favorite pizza place by all means but i decided to give it a chance and i decided too order the works bundle deal which it comes with a large pizza, breadsticks and a two liter of pop for just $19.99 which I think is not a bad deal at all for this and i did have it delivered because of where the shop is located to where I live.

In the works bundle you can get the works pizza or a specialty pizza and i decided to go with the philly cheesesteak pizza which has a three cheese blend, green onions, philly steak and green peppers on it was really good and it came with breadsticks i got the garlic parmesan breadsticks and they were good also and it came with a two liter i got regular pepsi.

I rate it 3 out of 5

I might order from here again in the future not sure yet.

this review is also at legendofsmiles.yelp.com

2020 Goals and More!

First Welcome to the new year of 2020!

As we move into a new decade and a new year I want to make some goals for this year and I figured if I blog about them I can keep myself accountable on my goals even though some of these goals will be repeats from previous years I still want to work on them very hard this year and achieve all my goals for 2020 and beyond.

The goals I am setting up for 2020 are as follows and are in no particular order. I will go into more detail at the bottom after I list them.

• Save Money For Toronto
• Lose Weight
• Become more organized
• Quit Smoking
• Attend Church More
• Blog More
• Be More Polite
• Be a better Cleaner
• Staying Focused

Goals In More Detail:

• Saving money to visit Toronto Canada as I plan to visit their this year in august as you can also tell by the countdown on my blog =)

• Lose Weight- is a repeat goal of mine on here and I would like to lose weight this year because I am not getting any younger as I am 36 years old and i currently weight between 376 and 400 pounds which for me is not ideal and I want to better my health and prolong my life.

• Become more organized- this one is a no brainer and I am gonna admit I am not the most organized person on the planet and I wanna change that and I wanna organize everything in my life from work, appointments, free time, cleaning, and whatever else can be organized.

• Quit Smoking- This is a repeat goal as well and seems to be on here every year and im am gonna try my hardest to tackle this this year.

• Attend Church More- this one is self explanatory and i have not attended probably in over a year or so.

• Blog More- I need to make more blog posts and add some more content to my blog.

• Be More Polite-  this one is also self explanatory as i would like to just have better manners

• Be a better Cleaner- this is a big one but self explains itself
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• Staying focused- this is a goal i want to work on everyday and to stay focused on daily tasks and not get ahead of myself and take one day at a time.

these are my goals for 2020 and i hope to stay accountable for my goals and if i come up with more goals for the year i will update you all.

Outback Steakhouse Review

This is the first time I have been to outback in many many years its been so long I can't remember.

Well to start off I really love the new location and the new building and the inside of the building is really nice and it's more of an open concept which they did not have at the old location.

My server Angie was awesome and she did an amazing job and she was always on it whether she was helping me or another table. The restauranti t was not that busy when i arrived and i arrived just before 5:10 pm and i was out of the restaurant by 6 pm which is a good amount of time for a restaurant of this caliber.

The food i ordered was really delicious and had lots of flavor as i ordered a bloomin' onion for an appetizer which i think is a must every time and then for my entree i ordered the alice springs chicken which was amazing also and had good flavor especially with the honey mustard sauce that came with it in total my meal came to a total of $32.00 USD which i think isnt too bad for one person here but might be a little steep.

The restaurant is nice and clean and all of the employees are nice and friendly and helpful.

I am rating the restaurant a 4 out of 5 stars the only reason its not a 5 star is because of the price.

I will for sure be back sometime in the future.

this review can be found on my yelp page check it out!

legendofsmiles.yelp.com

Happy New Year!

I hope everyone had a wonderful and safe holiday season and welcome to the new decade and 2020.

I hope everyone has a wonderful year!